Over the past 8 years I haven’t logged every workout I’ve ever done, but I surely logged a lot of them. I now regularly log pretty much every single workout I do accomplish. It made me think a little about my Fit by Forty plan.
Last time I wrote about the books I am working on I had just started Journey to the Center of the Earth by Jules Verne. That took me less than a month to destroy. It was hard in parts because I feel like the book needs some editing….not from a content standpoint, but a fact check of sorts. For instance, the dates jump around in places to where I had to go back and check that I wasn’t crazy in thinking that they were out of order.
Let’s not focus on the negatives though. I really enjoyed this story and it reminded me of the summer when all I read were “the classics” like Jane Eyre, Pride and Prejudice, and Portrait of a Lady. The language is quite beautiful in this type of book, but I can’t read it every day anymore. The only other downside to the book was that the story ended so abruptly. I expected a little more adventure…..
For instance, when they saw the giant man and the mastodons, why did they not go and investigate more? It seems to me that the book really told little of a “Journey” and more of a hike gone awry with little adventure at all other than storms, near starvation, and a few explosions.
My son is waiting on a different version of the book so that he can read it as the language did prove to be a little much for him.
We are still working on The Secret Garden at bedtime and I have gotten about 1/3 of the way through Part of Our Lives (more on those to come). My youngest just finished reading me The Tale of Despereaux by Kate DiCamillo and we’ll be watching the movie for our Friday night pizza/movie session tonight. He is now working on Mighty Jack and Zita the Spacegirl by Ben Hatke (the third in this series of graphic novels he has read). And the oldest just completed Robinson Crusoe by Daniel Defoe (another I haven’t yet read) and is on to something I can’t wait to read myself: Echo by Pam Munoz Ryan. It’s 500+ pages! I am so proud that he’s attempting such a large book at his age!
What have you read lately?
What’s the biggest book you or your kid(s) have read?
As I approach 40 a lot of things are different. One thing is that my hair is turning gray. Sometimes I pull the gray hairs, sometimes I just try to figure out a different way to wear my hair so that they aren’t so prominent. Many of my friends tell me they don’t even notice them. My kids have started telling me that I will soon be old.
So many other things have changed as well. I am actually in to a routine of flossing nightly….something I wish I had been doing for years. (Thank you COVID-19 lock down!) I sweat a lot more when I workout (I am guessing this is something hormonal). I don’t sleep well, but this could be due to stresses in my life.
And finally, my skin is changing. I am getting far more wrinkles on my face and my skin is drier than it has ever been. And that brings me to my thought for today…..question really.
Is it vain to try and use a cream to improve your skin as you age?
I am considering using something with retinols and hyaluranic acids and all of the other crazily termed chemicals out there. Partly for vanity and partly for the health of my skin as regular moisturizers don’t seem to do the trick at this time. I have even had to switch to using a cream with ceramides to prevent eczema patches from appearing on my elbows (something I never had before I was pregnant with my oldest).
I have never been the vain type….at least in my eyes. I am feeling a little down on myself for even considering this course of action. So, tell me
I have been doing a lot of meditation on self-love lately and realizing that some of that talk is very one sided. It asks you to give to yourself and not so much to others. But it doesn’t focus on allowing yourself to take from others so much.
I was reading on The Wellness Inventory today in the self-love study center and came across the Statement Commentary called It is OK for me to be out-of-balance, vulnerable, or in need.
For me, Self Love and Responsibility have been about knowing that it’s okay to be out of balance from time to time; to share that experience with others being vulnerable and in need. It’s been about increasing that interdependence and asking for help from time to time. It’s about accepting life without expectation of outcome and accepting the outcome of my decisions when they reveal themselves. It’s about learning that giving only to others doesn’t fulfill all that I need, but it does complete me.
I am making more time for self-care as I and my children get older. I do it through physical activity, meditation, getting more sleep, journaling, making time to read more, and trying to make sure the world I surround myself with fits my model of self love. I am trying to learn more about how to be accountable and accepting of my choices as well as how to learn from the ones that didn’t serve me. I am growing more assertive and responsible for my ultimate outcome in life. And I’m trying to be more kind to myself by letting go of some outcomes.
Today I also saw this quote on a blog that I follow:
Perfectionism is not the same thing as striving
to be your best. Perfectionism is the belief
that if we live perfect, look perfect, and act perfect,
we can minimize or avoid the pain of blame,
judgement, and shame. It’s a shield.
I am having the kind of day in which I wish I were supported by others. I wish that my self-love was more like others loving me and holding me up. I need to feel loved for who I am today by more than just myself. I am facing difficult challenges and today, the give and take doesn’t feel like I have received enough. Today I want to take. Today I want to take someone’s hand/shoulder/support and lean in to it. I want to feel held and seen and like it’s okay to be me and that I don’t have to do life alone.
I am strong most days, today is just not one of those day.
This past week has been a little bit better in the checking off things department. However, yesterday I didn’t get a chance to do a Wellness Wednesday post because my Wellness Inventory account was closed for most of the day. I was able to do a little work on myself there today, but I didn’t want to post late.
Instead, I opted to post today about a meditation/podcast I did this week. I used my Insight Timer app to finally listen to a podcast about self-love. It started out in a way that reminded me so much of SNL’s Delicious Dish segments that I wasn’t sure if I was going to be able to take it seriously. I decided to listen to the podcast while I did my yoga practice since I felt it wasn’t the same as a meditation. This had both positives (two birds with one stone) and negatives (my kids often talk through my physical practice and it was sometimes hard to focus on both the posture/breath work and their discussion).
I really don’t know how people listen to podcasts while they drive!
But, I just wanted to share one thought from the podcast with you today:
You are searching for what you’re searching with.
I am sure that this will mean something different to each of you, so I encourage you to share how that phrase resonates with you…..
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