It’s the end of the summer session for me today. I will be submitting final grades tomorrow. I finished grading my students’ big wellness vision projects yesterday. Usually when I do this I start to have these feelings of jealousy, but not this time.
Because I am finally fully on my own Wellness Journey that I am proud of.
I am pretty far into my goals of Self-Love and Responsibility and it’s starting to show as Confidence in myself and my choices. I am being less wishy-washy on certain topics and more open on others. I am not afraid to say “NO”.
This week I was doing some yoga (something that I had slacked on for a week or so) and Erin Motz at Bad Yogi said something so profound to me. She said (not an exact quote)
Confidence is not about being right or perfect; it’s about trusting your instincts and listening to your body.
Oh Erin, I so needed to hear that!
I am proud of my Wellness Journey because it is mine and it is not perfect, but it is going better than ever before. Something is sticking this time.
On the Wellness Inventory this week I read about “Taking Responsibility for My Experience“. It’s a self-examination on when we blame others and and when we own up to our part of making a situation what it is. I think that the more I learn about myself, the more I am aware of my faults. I am more confident in making good decisions instead of repeating bad ones. I acknowledge why I have made those decisions in the past and how my decision making is part of what led to certain situations.
I am not falling back on the cliche of a woman deserves what she gets because of what she said or how she dressed. That’s not what this is about. It’s not about assigning blame. It’s about recognizing that we’re all players. Everything is not 100% done to you and you don’t have to feel guilt or shame if you can learn from and move past an experience.
I have had my fair share of those experiences in life.
Lately I can trust more in who I am and what I need to do. I know when to stand my ground and when to back down. I am always a work in progress and that recognition allows me to perpetually learn and grow. I have listened to myself with open ears and looked at myself with open eyes.
When do you feel most confident?
What is something you have to take responsibility for in your life?