Wellness Wednesday #27 – Toxicity

I haven’t done a Wellness Wednesday post since August when we were just about to start the Fall Semester. So much has changed since then and yet not so much. We’re all still in the middle of a global pandemic. I am not teaching the way I used to. My kids are still at home…to some degree. And my life keeps moving forward. I am almost six months older than that last post and not necessarily any wiser. There are some things that have changed for the better since then. I am finally starting to find consistency in my every day life. I am finally focusing on a version of a Happiness Project that is working for me. I am making progressive strides each day.

As of today I have meditated for the past 39 days without break, I have run every day for 59 days (today will be 60) and I have practiced yoga for the past 89 (90 as of today) days. I also started doing Pilates every Tuesday, Thursday, and Saturday since the first full week of the semester…January 26th. I am progressing, but I still find myself with days in which I am also procrastinating.

It is easy for me to fall down a rabbit hole of the internet, tv, conversation with a friend, even grading and planning. Things that aren’t supposed to happen at the time they do and leave me neglecting other things. I don’t know if it is worse now because I have been doing the same things for so long now that I just don’t know how to put one foot forward some days?

Yesterday I did my meditation in the car while waiting to pick my kids up from one of their two days of school. I had our new puppy in the car and she kept trying to honk the horn at people in the car line because she wants to be with EVERYONE all of the time. I was still able to tune in to this message though:

https://insighttimer.com/justinmwilliams/guided-meditations/4-toxic-habits

I am not going to go in depth as to the 4 Toxic Habits described because I think it resonates differently with each person who listens. However, I want to focus on the first statement made:

You don’t get what you want in life; you get what you are.

Today was a day that I didn’t get much done. I didn’t get it done because I allowed toxicity and drama to creep into my way. Tomorrow I plan to wake up and try not to cry during my meditation (that’s a topic for another post) and then be productive and purposeful in my life. Because what I want is that and the only way to get it is to be it.

What do you want your life to be?

How will you be it for yourself?

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