Today is my 37th Birthday. As I commented over at Fit is a Feminist Issue …..I still don’t feel like I’m 37. In many ways I feel like I’m still 19. That was my first birthday in college. That was my first birthday after my parents split. That was my first birthday that I didn’t really celebrate……
Today is also the last day of my Happiness Project. And….the results are in:
I am not any happier now than I was before.
I know, kind of anticlimactic right? The truth is that this take on making myself “happy” didn’t work any differently than any of my other resolution paths from the past. Why? Because I am who I am and that’s all that I am. (said Popeye the Sailor Man)
The real question is: Would I do this again?
Instead of a “happiness” project, I feel that I have begun a “habits” project. If you’ve been reading the blog the last week and a half, you’ll know that I’m reading Gretchen Rubin’s Better Than Before and focusing on ways to be better at what I do and who I am.
Yesterday I wrote a very brief post because I feel a little like the ground underneath me is shaky. I am trying to decide what my life will look like in a year from now. Do I go back to work full-time? Can I handle that kind of responsibility?
I’m trying to decide what my life looks like at the end of this year. Can I really drive two kids across the country by myself, again? I want to go and visit my family because I have this nagging feeling that it will be the last time that I see one of my grandmothers; even though there’s nothing to support that feeling at this time.
I’m trying to decide what my life looks like each day. Today I forced myself to keep a running date with T. While we walked first (at my request) I felt trepidation about the upcoming 1.5 mile run. Why? As we ran my mind wandered all over the place and I felt as if I hated running. Why? None of this is my “usual” and something is definitely off for me right now.
So, for now I am engaged in another episode of Self-Study. I am trying to figure out how to be the BEST ME.
Hello Thursday and THANK YOU to Amanda for hosting another TOLT! If you’ve been reading the blog the last two weeks you already know about MY BEST BODY Happiness Project. In my reading of Gretchen Rubin’s book I came across mention of the Happiness Toolbox and so, intrigued, I attempted to visit the site. The book is a few years old, so the site had changed and kind of been dismantled. However, Rubin is publishing a new book called The Four Tendencies and recently posted about it here:
She offers a link to her quiz to tell you which of the four tendencies you fall into. I took the quiz and found that I am an OBLIGER: Meets outer expectations/Resists inner expectations. Basically, I’m really good at following the rules, but find it hard to do things that benefit myself. I’m better at taking care of others than myself. This is evidenced in my resolutions I’ve made over the years. Often when it’s something centered on benefiting me (either primarily or only) I put it to the back burner and focus on the things that benefit the whole. In some ways this is very “YOGA” of me, but the words of a long ago Dr. Phil episode still linger in my ears You can’t fill other people’s tanks if yours is empty. (or something of that nature)
One of the keys to success offered up by the quiz is to have external accountability in achieving a change. Wow! That’s definitely something I need. I’ve blogged before about walking with friends and the sadness that I have from lack of a true workout partner. Just Tuesday my friend mentioned the women that she runs with on Saturday mornings. However, she’s across town and I am often gone on the weekends. I am going to have to take time to ponder how to create a sufficient support network on this journey and to remember that I want this for me and that’s okay.What is your Tendency? Do you think your results are an accurate representation of your tendencies in making decisions?
Instead of a Workout Wednesday post this week I have chosen to start MY BEST BODY Happiness Project today. You’ll see Happiness Project and MY BEST BODY tags pop up a lot from now until my birthday in September. I’m giving myself 6 months to work on this in preparation of turning 37. Why not? 37 is just as special as any other year, but this year is mine….my special time to focus on one nagging task that has eluded structure; one problem that has gone unresolved; one body that just hasn’t been at its best.
I chose to start on the 15th of the month because it was a convenient marker that every month has…and it wasn’t too far away from when I started considering taking on this project. Each month check back in to see what I have worked on and what I will be working on next in order to attain MY BEST BODY. You can read here about what I’ve decided for Mar-Apr.
Each month I will try to align my project with a few questions. Here are mine for this month:
What am I doing for health to spend out? This month I am spending out by buying the food that I want. I am choosing based on quality and not just cost or quantity.
How am I honoring abundance? I am choosing to track the days that I feel great and to try to fill my days with movement. Recognizing that each day is the only time I will be this way.
Who is my guide? I was inspired this month by Ilana Wiles at MommyShorts to do 5 simple things that don’t turn my whole world upside down, but that make the difference for me.
What is it about control? I am choosing what is right for me and creating self-discipline in my practice.
Am I being me/Is this for anyone else? I have a lot to say about this one tomorrow in my TOLT post.
Are these resolutions or goals? These are ways I resolve to live my life and not a defined goal with an end point.
How does this create perpetual growth? It’s going to make me consider each day who I am and who I choose to be through my actions, my feelings, and what choices are right for me to be healthy.
What will my first face be…..? Come back tomorrow to find out!
Happy Monday All! Today is a good one! I made some decisions last week regarding MY BEST BODY Happiness Project and all of the pieces are falling in line. I hope that you find the time to go back and read more about this project and enjoy the process this week and beyond.
So, I’ve finally finished The Happiness Project by Gretchen Rubin. I don’t know if you’ve ever looked at what else I read, in terms of blogs, but hers has made it on to my WP Reader. I’m sold! I want more happiness in my life and I’ve started on my own HAPPINESS PROJECT: MY BEST BODY. More and more about that to come in the next few weeks. However, today, I want to talk about 3 things that are sticking with me (not totally unrelated to my own happiness project, but not directly either).
I have to be honest here…..I read the first half of the book feeling so inspired and aligned with the author. I mean, she’s a work from home mother of two who writes. However, I felt like a lot of the things she tackled in the first half of the book are things that I deal with already….tasks to make myself happier that I’ve already undertaken. So, I set the book down….unintentionally…..and when I came back I was ready to address the real work that would lead me to my own happiness project. Continue reading “Fave Reads Friday #8 – Spending Out”→
Tonight we will Trick or Treat and grill hotdogs/brats out in our backyard. The kids will get to eat some of their candy and the rest will be left for The Great Pumpkin! I love this time of year, because I feel like Halloween officially marks the start of Fall Holiday Season! I’ve got so many things planned in the next few weeks that I just want today to be about fun! But, in the tradition of “holiday season” let’s take a quick recap of the month and my 30 Days resolutions before we get all spooky and go into a candy corn coma!
See the world – I did very little traveling this month due to Hurricane Matthew that came through at the beginning of October and screwed up a lot of my plans. However, this coming weekend I will be headed to Columbia, SC for a NETA Personal Trainer workshop and there’s more travel in the future.
Follow through and finish what I start – I am happy to say that I completed my one project that I wanted to get done this month…..and on time. However, my calendar still had some holes in it as far as being all crossed off. I have some online training to complete this week for one of my many jobs and tomorrow I start in on some new projects. You should also come back tomorrow to read about the gaps in my training plan and what I’ll be doing in November.
Face my fears
Get some more education/professional development – I have decided to register for a yoga training in January and I’ve been scrounging up work in order to make that happen.
Accept responsibility for my mistakes, take ownership and ask for forgiveness when necessary
Embrace my love of the scale
Compete – I’ve been thinking about when a good date to set for the 8K would be…..do you have a suggestion for one?
Reconnect – This is an area in which I have failed miserably over the course of this month and therefore, as soon as I am done with this post…..I will be making an important phone call.
Write more – This month (including today) I only managed 12 posts and over 15 last month. Hopefully November has more PREPARATION that allows for better posting…..because there’s things I want to write about. However, I did a lot more writing as far as work goes this month.
Read – I have a book waiting for me at the library! More about that next month.
Make new things to eat – I tried my hands at scones this month…..and it didn’t go well; hence no post about it. But I did try making some Gluten Free pumpkin muffins with a mix by Namaste and that did go surprisingly well! So well so that I am making a non-gluten free from scratch recipe with a twist later today. I also made some other great muffins that I will share when I bake them again.
Bump up the mileage – I have been running more consistently (and earlier) and trying to complete these 5 mile runs. My plan tomorrow will tell you how close I am to running the whole distance.
Get the photos under control
Treat myself to gear – Waiting to get paid today to purchase this!
Awareness – Gifts of Yoga to enjoy and cultivate – My work on meditation is helping me to get through this hectic time in my life.
Strength – Gifts of Yoga to enjoy and cultivate
Flexibility – Gifts of Yoga to enjoy and cultivate
Balance – Gifts of Yoga to enjoy and cultivate
3 better yoga poses – My focus on Garland pose this month suffered greatly….more on that tomorrow.
Clean out the friendship fridge
Fitness measures outside of running and yoga
Just Say No!
Be someone – I was requested for a workshop in March!
Check in! – And that leaves me here…..each month I find it hard to hit all of the markers I have set out for the year, but I’m still working on it. I told a friend/boss this afternoon that I really want to check off the boxes so that I can start fresh again in January. Much of this will carry over to that time and for the rest of my life because that’s what living a Yoga Life is all about…..being in the present and looking to the future.
One of my students took some photos in my class last Friday. This being in the moment, recognizing the past, and looking to the future is the perfect description of Warrior II pose. I don’t know why I look so serious in this photo, but I do know that I am looking forward to tomorrow and a new day, a new month, a new challenge to be completed.
What happened to you in October?
(feel free to post a link to your monthly recap below)
My 36th Birthday was on Tuesday and to celebrate I did a 5k on Sunday morning. You can read my Race Report here. Then I read a post on Tuesday by Tracy at Fit is a Feminist Issue that sparked my thoughts for the next year. I made a lot of resolutions in January (read the recap of them here) and I’ve been slowly working on them these last 9 months. But, now September is almost over and I’ve completed my 36th year of living on this Earth. So, what comes next?
I’m doing it! I’m going to start reading another book that is not on my 2016 Book List, but I haven’t read a book for me in a few months and it’s time!
Tuesday I was putting together our book list on my library mobile site and I came across this little gem and decided to throw it on hold. I picked it up later that afternoon and used some of my afternoon time yesterday to crack it open. I’ll write more about it when I get a little deeper in, but it spoke to me with all that I’ve been thinking about the last week (You can read about that in yesterday’s post The 300.) and the choice I made earlier this year as part of my 30 Days resolutions.
I wanted to write a little more today about my trip this weekend and some things I’m thinking about in a little TOLT fashion, so here’s my top 3 list for this Think Out Loud Thursday with a HUGE THANK YOU to Amanda for hosting! Continue reading “TOLT – 3…2…1….Read!”→
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