Most and Least of 2016 – A Brief Look Backward

our-flowerWith the end of the year just a day and a half away, I thought I’d look back at a few things…..

Most Viewed Post – Thigh Gap? – TOLT

Least Viewed Post – Five Yamas Friday #1 – Delayed by Hurricane Matthew

Most Mileage Month – March 46.25 miles

Least Mileage Month – December (so far) 2.52 miles

Most Accomplished 30 Days Goal(s) –

Least Accomplished 30 Days Goal(s) –

So, overall I’m about 50/50 on things….and I’m pretty good with that. Come back tomorrow to see the second half of this assessment….Looking Forward!

How did you do in 2016?


Currently December 2016 – TOLT #54

I’m back! Well, sort of. I’ve been away from my blog for a full month now. Why? By choice mostly….I’ve chosen to prioritize other things that I had going on. Also, because I’m pretty sure that I’m suffering from a little holiday depression. It’s almost the end of the year and a lot of people are looking back at their 2016 and reveling in the things they’ve accomplished. Others are looking forward to what will happen in 2017. I am in a third group…..somewhat less optimistic and trying to wrap my head around what comes next.

See, I didn’t accomplish everything I hoped to do as far as my 30 Days goals went. I even tried scaling back on numerous occasions. I tried to maintain a fitness streak through the holidays and had to abandon that due to my unwillingness to run in this cold this year. Yet, I don’t quite feel like a failure. I determined awhile back that this would be the year of self study….Svadhyaya. And I’ve learned a lot about myself this year, so check that off the list!

And the summary of it all is this….I am one girl, aged 36, on a mission to live the best life I can and to instill in my children the best confidence and values that I can while I am here. I am not perfect, nor do I aspire to be. I am a fitness professional who sometimes struggles to make exercise a priority. I am a yoga teacher who sometimes yells and loses it. I am me….I am still here….taking it one breath at a time; and I will be for some time more.

So, 2016, Thank you for your service. And as for 2017 I’ve decided this:

Each day I will arise and say not “what needs to be done today?”, but rather, “what can I do?” and then I will do what I can and be happy with the results. I will strive for a more minimalist approach to expectations, work, and things that don’t give me joy. I will stop looking around at all of the unfinished and feeling guilty, but instead look at what has been done and feel successful.

How will you live your 2017? Which are you: The kind that looks back, forward, or stuck in between?

Thank you to Amanda for allowing me a place to dump my thoughts!

Days 10-12: Fear of Letting Go

I spent a little more time on meditation with the Gates’ book this weekend. I am still in the section of the Yamas regarding Aparigraha and I’m coming to realize a few things about myself. Last weekend, at the end of my meditation, I wrote down:

I am not the hoarder you think I am….I am worse

Maybe not the most positive thing I’ve ever thought, said, or written about myself, but truth none the less. Why is this truth? Continue reading “Days 10-12: Fear of Letting Go”

Throwback TOLT (#47) – Thinking About Thursdays

I started this blog in January 2014 and had not yet found Running With Spoons or the TOLT, but somehow I posted this little gem titled almost the same thing. I think it was around this time that I was reading Commitness to Fitness and Charlotte was also linking up with Amanda and yet I had no idea. So you can click here to read the original if you like:

Thinking About Thursday

Or enjoy this little snippet from the post:

Random Mom Thoughts
Don’t you hate that moment when you’re changing a diaper and it looks like peanut butter is in there and then you feel some left over crunchy peanut butter between your teeth from the lunch you just ate? Yeah, that just happened to me this afternoon and I think I’ll be taking pbj sandwiches out of the lunch rotation for a few extra days.

Either way, have a great Thursday and take a moment to look back at your old writing to see how it’s changed!

pigeonPS: Yoga practice today will be some much needed pigeon pose. Look for some more info on pigeon pose in Mini Movie Monday #4 or check out these two other posts of mine:

On The Road Again

Taking Inventory


What was your first TOLT?

Days 3-6: Aparigraha

For Saturday-Monday of the long holiday weekend I chose to turn back to the Gates book and spend some time in meditation for my 30 Days of Yoga challenge. I gave myself at least 5 minutes each day to reflect upon the ideas at hand and I picked up where I left off the last time I attempted to finish this book. I was in the section of the book still on the Yamas and Aparigraha or the precept of non-hoarding. I’ve written about this concept many times and about the idea of letting go in yoga before. It’s one of the main things I preach about in practice. Be here. Be present. Let Go…..

However, this weekend I felt a little deeper. Continue reading “Days 3-6: Aparigraha”

Meditation Monday #8: Relations

I apologize for the long absence from my blog posting. My mother came to visit for a week to celebrate my son’s 4th birthday which I will post all about later this week and then my family was struck down with a variety of sicknesses that all prevented me from blogging and reading other blogs. However, I was able to finish reading something else:

No-Drama Discipline: The Whole-Brain Way to Calm the Chaos and Nurture Your Child’s Developing Mind by Daniel Siegel and Tina Payne Bryson.

I was lucky enough to get a copy of this book from my local library, but it was in high demand and I ultimately returned it late with a fine because I just had to finish it. This book made me cry and laugh and cry some more. It spoke to me as more than just a parenting book and I recommend you check it out whether you’re a parent or not. Here are some other praises for the book:
Time Magazine Online
Parents Magazine Online
Huffington Post

Usually in a Meditation Monday post I write about a way that yoga and the teachings of yoga can help you to be a better person, but today I want you to look back at who you are and think about if it’s all you could have been if things had been different when you were growing up? Not everyone has a perfect childhood and not everyone has a bad one either. Neither determines 100% of who you will be when you grow up, but I do believe there are some things that I missed out on that have led me down a certain path in life.

I have an incoherent core self caused by the many times my internal feelings were not validated in my many relationships over the past 34 years. I do believe that it’s always okay to feel how you feel. People who love you should be there for you even when you’re at your worst. Behaviors may be right or wrong, but not feelings. It is sometimes hard for me to trust and open up or share my feelings because I have been told too often that they are wrong. And when I’m falling apart, all I have ever needed was human contact and validation. I think the worst thing you can do to a kid is to shut down their feelings or not let them cry. I have felt disconnected over the years from my parents for various reasons and all of them emotionally related. I have been told to suck it up, pull it together, it’s no big deal, etc. I have been told as an adult in relationships that it’s not fun to be around you unless you’re happy. These are damaging statements to a person at any age.

I have been using my yoga to put myself back together, but I’m finding that there’s more to it than just my yoga practice. And, after reading this book, I am trying not to break my kids for whomever else they decide to love in their future.

Toward the end of the book there were two things that really stuck with me and I share them with you here:

P.203 You don’t have to get stuck in a negative experience. You don’t have to be a victim to external events, or internal emotions. You can use your mind to take charge of how you feel, and how you act.
(See Meditation Monday: Mind Over Matter)

P.211 Recent studies are suggesting that simply holding our bodies in various postures can actually shift our emotions, along with the way we view the world.
(See my post about resting into postures

Each of these things tells me that my yoga is a part of my healing process and so is positive thinking. So, each day I practice to not just be a better me, but to be a better wife, mother, friend, daughter, etc. I hope to heal myself and to prevent my children from ever needing to be healed. Check out the book and tell me what you think.