TOLT #78 – In Over My Head

It’s been almost two months since I’ve written on the blog and the only reason I am doing it right now is that I have four minutes until I have a student meeting and I figured I could crank out a quick post.

As I’ve written so many times before, this blog is something that is so incredibly important to me, but which I don’t always take the time for. This semester I took on 7 classes that I am teaching between the university and community college. I am in over my head.

I have often wondered what it would be like to have a full-time job and now I kind of know…..I can’t handle it at this point in my life. I am not a great multi-tasker and although I have gotten better at saying no to things I don’t really want to do, I am not great at saying no to all of the things I don’t have time to do.

The best thing I have done for myself of late is to prioritize my training FOR REAL! For instance, I have started coming to the rec center on my days off as soon as I drop my kids off. This way I am sure to get my workouts in. It may take up a little more of my time in that I am traveling across town to get here and back, but totally worth it because it’s keeping me fit and sane.

I have decided that I can’t do 7 classes in the future….at least not with my other commitments and how much I want to work out. So, I’m back down to 5 in the spring and that means more time for the blog and life in general.

I hope to be able to get some posts up soon about the race I did and my half-marathon training. I also have some great student posts left to share. Until then, if you’re still out there reading, I could use a few comments to let me know you’re here and what you’d like to know!

 

Thanks and Namaste!

TOLT #77 – If I Could Turn Back Time

It’s been a hot minute since I posted on the blog and even longer since I posted a Think Out Loud Thursday post. I mostly stopped doing those because Amanda at Running With Spoons just suddenly went MIA after my last post. I still haven’t been able to find out where she disappeared to in Canada and if she’s ever coming back. So, on I press with my summer and my blog….. Continue reading “TOLT #77 – If I Could Turn Back Time”

TOLT #76 – Modeling

Well, it’s Thursday and I still haven’t finished How We Live Our Yoga, but I did start to find some anecdotes that spoke to me. Maybe the back portion of the book is meant to be the best so that if you actually stick with it it will be worth the time?

There was one passage by Judith Hanson Lasater in which she talks about how her yoga changes over the years and about being a “Swami Mommy” As my youngest is starting Kindergarten on Monday and I move into the next phase of my own life, I realize why my kids need me to do my yoga just as much as I need it. They need me to be patient and ever evolving along with them. My life is changing and so is theirs. They also need a mom who is flexible both mentally, emotionally, and physically. I need to grow and change and listen and able to keep up. Continue reading “TOLT #76 – Modeling”

TOLT #75 – The Daily 10

So, remember way back when I did the Sun Salutation Challenge? I wondered what would happen to my yoga after it ended….and I found out.

Well, I stopped doing my yoga and it has cost me dearly! Last summer I killed it at running for A LOT of the summer. This summer, not so much….what’s the difference? Well, firstly is that last summer I was coming off of a great semester of teaching yoga, I was teaching yoga twice a week in the early mornings, and I was teaching Summer I and Summer II yoga. I was mad about yoga at the time and I knew that the fall semester would change my activities. Continue reading “TOLT #75 – The Daily 10”

TOLT #74: Negative Talk and The Best Mile

Today I am extremely unmotivated to swim….lift….or do my Sun Salutations, but I will at least get in the last of those this afternoon. Some of my lack of motivation is due to lack of partners for these activities. I’m telling you…..I need that accountability, even as a Fitress Professional.

I wrote to my running partner about this same topic last week. I had been sick with a sinus infection in Wednesday and opted not to run with her that day. Thursday I knew I could run indoors, without kids, and probably get in my 3-1 mile repeaters. So, I started them….still a little turned off to the idea of a run because the indoor track is 9 laps per mile.

My first mile was AMAZING! I posted just over 7:16….I think my fastest ever mile in my life was 6:57. My initial reactions were pride and encouragement, but as I did my rest intervalĀ  walk….the negative talk set in.

First it was: there’s no way I can go that fast again. So, I just decided to try. And the second mile….7:19. I watched the time each lap and just kept pushing mentally.

Then, walk number two….again the negative thoughts poured in. No way could I even be under 8:00 if I did my third one; I am tired of going around in circles; I don’t want to push so hard I make myself more sick; I don’t really need to do all three…..

That’s when a singularly important thought breezed through my mind. …so quickly that I almost didn’t catch it: T did her three yesterday. That was it! I held on tight to the idea that I’d be letting down my training partner, cheating her out of the equality of our training, if I gave up now.

So, I mustered one more mile….this time counting every half a lap….then every quarter. I couldn’t watch the clock because I feared it would defeat me. Third repeater: 7:50.

It wasn’t as fast, but I finished it.

I am a strong runner….but I’m stronger now than ever because I am learning about what motivates me and how to overcome those negative thoughts by grabbing on to positive ones. It’s 16 days until race day and I’m making every run!

 

How do you stay motivated when the negative or lazy talk settles in?

Do you prefer to workout together or alone?

What’s your fastest mile?

 

Thank you Amanda for the TOLT space!

TOLT # 73 – Happy Holidays…..See you next year!

This year, like many of them past, has been a challenge of self-study.

In yoga we call this Svadhyaya and I’ve written about it more times than I can count.

In the past I’ve focused on certain areas of study….yoga, fitness, eating, habits, happiness, etc. and it’s all brought me closer to enlightenment about myself.

It has been great doing this study of the self and it continues to help me grow as a yoga teacher, a college professor, a fitness professional, a mom, and as a human being.

In pursuing a deeper understanding of ourselves we become the best version of ourselves because we’re freed from thoughts of who we should be and, instead, find ourselves resting in who we are.

I like living in this place of who I am….of being me.

In 2018 the blog is going to change direction slightly, as it does from time to time.

I’ve chosen to make 2018 a Wellness Journey and I’m inviting you along.

My students do this wellness journey each semester and cover 12 dimensions of wellness. I’m expanding mine to journey over the course of 2018….one dimension a month.

Instead of committing to a schedule of posting, it will be more free form as it was in the beginning. That doesn’t mean that there won’t still be Meditation Monday posts that pop up from time to time, Fave Reads Fridays, and Workout Wednesday. It’ll all be here.

I write this blog so that people know two things:

  1. There is good and reliable information out there from reputable sources on fitness, wellness, eating, etc. I am one of those people. I am certified and have a Master’s degree. I am not here to lead you astray.
  2. It’s not easy for any of us. This is the area I wish to stress the most through my blog. I may have years and years and years of experience with fitness, sport, etc, but it’s never easy to stick with it. It’s not easy to eat well all of the time. It’s not easy to be yogi zen all of the time. Life is hard for us all, but in that sense I hope to build a community with you.

And that’s my last sentiment for you in 2017. This blog is a place of community for you to come, learn about yoga, learn about books and food and exercises, learn about yourself. But, it’s also a place for you to share with me, to share with us (your fellow readers) your experience.

In 2018 I hope that I receive more comments on the material I post. It’s here for you, it’s here for me, it’s here for us all. I want to write more about what you want to read about, but I need your input. I want you as part of my community and part of my wellness journey.

My journey officially kicks off January 2….enjoy your holidays and I’ll see you back here then.

Namaste

Thanks to Amanda and her Spoons Community for sharing this TOLT space!

TOLT #72 – Habits at Home and Away

I’ve been thinking more and more about my habits and how they’re effected by differing situations. Like how it’s so much easier for me to run when I know that I have a race I’m training for or someone to show up to run with. Location also seems to have an impact on my habits…..but not so much whether I’m at home or away. At first I thought that it was easier for me to give up my “good habits” when I wasn’t at home, but then I realized that location is only part of the equation. What’s the other part? Continue reading “TOLT #72 – Habits at Home and Away”

TOLT #71 – A Week Unhinged

It’s Thursday again and this week has been a little up and down. I missed yesterday’s Workout Wednesday post because I ran out of time to write and load. The video is all done and ready to go, but it will have to wait until next week.

As I’ve been writing about my schedule I notice a few things that I need to work on:

  1. Timing
  2. Fluidity
  3. Fun

Let’s start with Timing. I mentioned recently that I probably should have gotten a calendar with time slots in it because I need to start ordering when I am doing things. Timing also means knowing how much time an activity will take. This blends into Fluidity. When planning my activities I need to figure out what I can do when to make things flow. So, I don’t want to be out and then need to come home before I go back out again. I used to be much better at this when my kids were smaller and had certain nap/feeding times. It was easier to map out what needed to be done when and to pack accordingly. Now, I feel like I run here and there and am constantly shuffling things to the next day.

Fluidity and Timing have had a big impact on Fun. My word of the week is PLAY and that was almost like bad permission to throw the schedule out the window….

On Tuesday I taught a pumpkin workout with medicine balls. Because I had to carry them all over the place and did 62 Sun Salutations, I skipped weight training. (permission to play and not to work out) Yesterday I ran with T and then she and the kids stayed over to play which pushed back the time I went grocery shopping and therefore made me skip posting and….because my arms were dead from Tuesday….I also skipped Sun Salutations. (too much permission to play) Today I am still feeling DOMS from Tuesday, but will be conquering my 64 Sun Salutations as soon as this post goes up. I skipped my swim today to come home to a “sick” kid (just reflux) and now I will not hit 108 SS on Thanksgiving Day.

Fluidity to me also means going with the flow of things. So, a goal has been missed, but that doesn’t mean that I’m dropping it. Part of the Sun Salutation Challenge is part of me forming the habit of a more regular yoga practice. I feel like I need to renew my commitment to yoga now that I’m not currently teaching it.

So, a few things have thrown me for a loop this week and my timing is off, but it’s only one week.

One final thing to announce…..I had applied for that full-time position and found out on Monday that I was no longer in the running. This is a good and a bad thing for me, but I’m not quite ready to talk about it in full this post. It’s probably what set me off track this week.

Tomorrow I have a few more notes on habits in the Fave Reads Friday post…all I can say for now is IRONY!

What do you do with off weeks?

How do you maintain commitment?

A special Thank You to Amanda for the TOLT space to share.

TOLT #70 – 7 Things

Another Thursday; Another Habits Post…..

A lot of my habits revolve around scheduling. This is something that I need a lot of work on. I have the bad habit of putting too much on my plate. I want the good habit of managing my time wisely. I didn’t think this through before buying my new planner, but I think it will help me take a baby step in the right direction.

I wrote before about how it only has 7 lines for each day. I’m going to try to keep with only doing 7 things each day. This means that certain things have to give. For instance…..today I put only 7 things on my schedule:

  1. Teach
  2. Sun Salutations
  3. Swim
  4. Do lunch orders for school
  5. Write a habits post
  6. Attend Fall Festival
  7. T-ball game

I am currently on #5, but had to skip #3 because I didn’t put in there – make time to catch up with students that need questions answered. I have only 50 minutes between when one class ends and when I absolutely need to leave the gym to be on time to pick my youngest up from preschool. That meant that talking to students took up 15 minutes and sun salutations almost 20 minutes and then no time to change, swim, shower, get dressed, and out the door in 15 minutes. So, it got sacrificed.

Also getting sacrificed on this Thursday….grocery shopping, balancing check books, laundry, reading, and answering emails. Tomorrow I have 13 things on my list….not including things that didn’t get finished earlier this week. Saturday and Sunday each only have 2 things and hopefully that means I can “catch up” over the weekend. But I’ve already scheduled far more than 7 things for the days ahead.

I know that my time is finite. I can’t make more appear, but I can be more efficient at what I do. I am still using the Pomodoro Technique when I do a lot of things, in order to speed me up, but I think that I really should have invested in a calendar that had time blocks so that I could map out how long things would take and be more realistic with my scheduling. Hopefully 7 things in 2018 will get me closer to my goals, but only time will tell….

What is your best trick for managing your schedule?

What are the “have to’s” of your daily life?

What do you sacrifice in a time crunch?

ps – My Word of the Day….HUMBLE (so true!)

TOLT #69 – The Importance of Habits for Obligers

I hope that this Thursday HABITS UPDATE will become a regular thing in my life and for the blog. It’s necessary for me to have a regular posting schedule for my writing and for myself. And currently I’m undertaking the project of improving my habits.

Today I’m also linking up with Amanda at Running With Spoons as I have been doing on and off for the last couple of years. She does this great Think Out Loud Thursday round-up that always gives me new things to read. I’ve found a lot of great new blogs to follow through there and I’ve enjoyed having some of her readers stop by and comment from time to time. It gives me fresh eyes as to what people will click on and read.

But HABITS UPDATES are going to be strictly for me. A post that I need to write each week to keep myself accountable to the changes I am trying to make….serious changes in my fitness and scheduling. Habits are important for Obligers because we have this sense of duty in life….to serve. In yoga we talk about our duty in life as our Dharma and as a yogi, a mother, a wife, a teacher, etc….I serve a lot of other people.

Rubin wrote in Better Than Before (and recently on her blog) about Obliger Rebellion…..when those of us who live to serve reach our limit. This HABITS UPDATE will also make me accountable to myself and giving myself time to do what I want to do so that I don’t reach the point of Obliger Rebellion.

So, how am I doing so far?

Well, this week I’ve been pretty good about checking off things on my to-do list. I am using my planner on the regular and committing to doing the things that I put on there. I am committed to putting things on the list that I want to do as well as things I need to do and not prioritizing needs over wants all of the time. Some of my wants are also needs.

I want to run twice a week with T; but I also need to run to keep my body in good health, clear my mind, and socialize with another adult. I want to read and write on the blog. I want to have a clean house. I want to see my kids have fun atĀ  t-ball. These wants all make me happy and happiness is something I really need in my life.

I also thrive on schedules. I am a planner and a finisher. I love to see things ticked off my list. I’m sure my students appreciate this too because it means that I’m taking care of things they need from me and planning classes that have a purpose. I’m sure that my kids appreciate that I don’t miss their events and that I make time for play dates. I’m sure that my husband appreciates that I have scheduled a time to shop and pay bills so that our house is mostly in order and we’re not always ordering out.

Scheduling is a big thing for me to be successful in my habits….it’s the reason that I’ve already ordered my new planner and have birthdates, anniversaries, and school schedules (through spring) in their….waiting to be used. But my new planner presents a few new challenges to me.

First is that there are only 7 spaces (if I squeeze) on each day. Currently I have 10 spaces for each day and often write double items on lines. This is a habit I want to break and hope that my new planner helps me to finally start saying NO to overbooking and over obligating myself.

The second “problem” is that I have to decide if I’m continuing my Word of the Day as a “daily” thing in this planner. There’s a perfect spot for me to write a word for the week, but not enough space for daily inclusion….it would take up one of my 7 lines. So, I have to decide about this habit. I haven’t been doing it for long enough for it to be noticed as absent in the near future, but by the time I hit January I would have had quite the streak of WOD that it might feel empty without it. One way I can trade off on this is to start doing a weekly word in November….things that I will consider as it comes closer (marathoner).

The thing I’m happiest about at this point with the habits is that I haven’t chosen drastic changes that set myself up for failure. I feel confident in keeping this going and I am looking forward to updating you again next week!

How does scheduling affect your ability to keep a habit?